I feel like writing at the moment. I’ve visited his blog just now (and even recently). At first I smiled cos he was writing about me. I missed him too. But then on a second thought, was it me he was writing about or someone else :(

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I’m easily replaced & it makes me sad :’(

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Love scrap by me and him made in MSN chat.

Love scrap by me and him made in MSN chat.

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11 Plays

Baby, baby, when we first met
I never felt something so strong
You were like my lover and my best friend
All wrapped into one, with a ribbon on it

And all of a sudden, when you I left
I didn’t know how to follow, it’s like a shot
That spun me around and now my heart left
I feel so empty and hollow

And I’ll never give myself to another, the way I gave it to you
Don’t even recognize the ways you hit me, do you?
It’s gonna take a miracle to bring me you back
And you’re I’m the one to blame

And now I feel like, oh, you’re the reason why I’m thinking
I don’t wanna smoke all these cigarettes no more
I guess this is what I get for wishful thinking
I You should’ve never let you me into my your door

Next time you wanna go on and leave
I should just let you go on and do it
It’s not amusing like I believe

It’s like I checked into rehab
Baby, you’re my disease
It’s like I checked into rehab
Baby, you’re my disease

I gotta check into rehab
‘Cause baby, you’re my disease
I gotta check into rehab
‘Cause baby, you’re my disease

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I miss him eh :(

I’m a messed

I’m a train wreck

I can’t fake a smile and said I am okay

Cos I am not okay, he is not okay (even though he said so)

And this is not okay.

Sigh

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I’ve been living in the darkness Pushing my self away more distant every single day.Far away from hope and I vow “This will be loneliness infinity”.I’m tired and I’m tumblingI’m giving up cos I’m all broken upI found you and I see hopeYou made my darkened sky brighten againEven if you’re far away today I’m surely everything will change now And let say this wont be a broken hope,I’m letting my fear awaySo I wont go to that darkest place anymoreThis is the moment we hand in handMend this broken heart of mine againTogether we’ll be Lovers till the end.-[S]yazyyy

I’ve been living in the darkness 
Pushing my self away more distant every single day.
Far away from hope and I vow “This will be loneliness infinity”.
I’m tired and I’m tumbling
I’m giving up 
cos I’m all broken up

I found you and I see hope
You made my darkened sky brighten again
Even if you’re far away today 
I’m surely everything will change now 
And let say this wont be a broken hope,
I’m letting my fear away
So I wont go to that darkest place anymore

This is the moment we hand in hand
Mend this broken heart of mine again
Together we’ll be Lovers till the end.

-[S]yazyyy

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March 22nd

Is the day that I’ve decided to go my own separate way. Not because I’ve stopped loving him. And not because his love to me is fading away. It was the hardest moment for me and even for him as well. I’ve got to do what I think the best for us.

I’ll be missing you a lot.

Love, hugs & kisses,

S.

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